[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] Submitted

Yesterday, I mailed three stories to the Big Three.

And I expect that unless I find a way to cope with the anxiety, I’ll be mad before the end of the week.

For whatever reason, submitting to the WotF contest has never produced such a reaction. Possibly because by submitting to a contest for budding authors, I’m “probing.” There really isn’t much to it. By submitting to a pro magazine, I’m declaring to myself and to the world that I’m ready to embark down the obscure road to becoming a professional author. And now, I have a promise to hold myself to.

Goals are heavy burdens.

So, here are my first ever submissions:
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“Flipside of Reason” – Asimov’s Magazine, mailed March 24th, 2009
“To The View Through Human Eyes” – Analog, mailed March 24th, 2009
“Scales” – Fantasy and Science Fiction, mailed March 24th, 2009

I have also settled on a pen name. We’ll see if this one will stick.

In other news, I’ve started a new short story (too early to tell if it will be around for long enough to find its place in the “works” list), and I’ve worked a little more on “The Motion of Standing Still.” I’ve been mostly in edit mode for the submissions, but now that those are off, I need to get back into writing mode. We’ll see how much writing I can get done before I fly out to Asia for work next month.

[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] Lost Battles

News from the writing world:

Got news “Scales” didn’t make it past honorable mention in WotF — can’t say I’m heartbroken. Can even say I expected it.

Posted its first 13 on Hatrack — they went up in flames. Another thing I need to tweak before sending it out to magazines.

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In other news, saw Watchmen for the second time tonight. Comic-booky movie, not so good, craft-wise… but really, REALLY great as a tribute to the comic. And the atmosphere was spot-on. And Rorschach was extremely well done (he was the character that made me fall in love with the comic, he’s the character who carried the movie for me, even if the brilliance of the comic/movie was in the story/message itself).

Well done!

[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] Midweek musings

Well, I had a really bad day at work. Almost screamed at a coworker, then had a momentary lapse of judgment and expressed my frustration in front of my boss. So, I’m not sure what kind of mess I’ve started. I’ll feel REALLY horrible if the whole thing gets back to that coworker of mine. I was in my right to be upset, I think, but the guy’s not having an easy time himself, so I should have just kept it between us two.

I’ll try to do damage control tomorrow (oh boy, oh boy, those are always fun) but I’m frankly getting a little tired of this nonsense. Ultimately, it really isn’t the guy’s fault — it’s the company culture that’s just spectacularly EFFed up. The lines that are drawn between responsibilities make no sense and cause such major cluster EFFs, it’s really a wonder the beast can even move.

But, anyway.

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So, I got brave and posted the first 13 of Flipside. So far, I actually have very encouraging reviews! And I have offers from a couple of members to critique the whole thing. I’m not really sure I want to go for that. Not that I can’t use more feedback, I’m just not sure if I want to send the story out to effectively complete strangers.

On a less encouraging note, I read Chapter 4 of Prehistoric to the local writers’ group and got all thumbs down. Lack of voice, apparently. I know I didn’t give a very good intro to the whole thing, but I’m pretty sure that wasn’t the sole problem. I try to set up a generally dismissive, slightly detached voice using kind of a mock-formal vocabulary… apparently, the formal comes too strong, and the mock doesn’t. So, it’s probably back to the drawing board with this one. Or maybe I’ll just let it sit for a while, then try to maybe refine the voice. But I guess I’ll see when I cross that bridge.

[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] So….

All three of the stories I’m preparing to send out to magazines, “Flipside,” View,” and my latest WotF submission, have been revised to an “acceptable” level and sent off to my personal harshest critic (my brother =).

I also received critiques on “Flipside” from a couple of writing buddies, and both believe that the story needs to be “tightened” up. Unfortunately, that’s like saying “you should write better characters” or “your plots aren’t strong enough.” Er… I know they have a point (I wouldn’t be giving them to review any of my stories unless I trusted them, of course), but how do I go about tightening up a story, when in my head it sounds pretty damn tight? A friend recently suggested to “read it as if it was someone else you know who read it.” Another advice I understand to be valuable, but have no idea how to go about putting in practice.

So, I’m just pouring out my frustration here. I expect my brother will come back with “all three are complete garbage.” (I can fully trust him to not pull any punches) On the other hand, if I continue NOT sending stuff out because I believe it’s garbage, I may never send anything out. I figure, at least if I send something that I know isn’t perfect and get a rejection, I won’t hurt as bad as if I send something that I think is the greatest piece of writing on Earth and get the thumbs down on it.

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So, I guess she’s my inspiration to try and put myself in the way of the steamrollers. I could continue writing (because I can’t, and don’t want, to ever stop =), keeping everything to myself until I produce “the masterpiece,” which I’m pretty sure will never happen. Or I can put myself out there, even with stories that aren’t the best they could be, were I a better writer, and set myself up with a gauge of sorts. I don’t expect any of these first three stories to be picked up by the magazines I’m submitting to first (especially since these are the TOP sci-fi/fantasy magazines out there today), but if I keep producing stories and keep submitting them, I figure one day I’ll get to the point where my stories may start getting accepted, and not as a fluke. And I’ll have a clear indication of when I “get there.”

So, that’s my rant for the day.

[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] Happy Bulgarian Liberation Day!

So, I was being good last night, and went to bed at around 11pm, right?

Well, so I’m lying in bed, and I start remembering this old story of mine. And I almost get a panic attack when I suddenly think I’m FORGETTING it. So, I get into this complete madwoman frenzy, jump out of bed, start throwing around old boxes, trying to find the story. So, I finally dig up the notebooks, and spend the next couple of hours reading through the story. Needless to say, I’m dead tired again this morning. I really need to find a good way to record and organize my Bulgarian and hand-written stuff… Either that, or take a five-year sabatical and transfer everything to readable stories in electronic English format.

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And my one true nightmare is losing even little bits of this.

[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] Twiddle Thee Thumbs

Ok, so I really gotta get better at updating this.

I went to ConDWF two weekends ago, met up with a bunch of old friends and had a generally great time. So, not a droplet of writing (and very few droplets of sleep). Then I spent a few days recovering.

This past weekend, I caught up on errands and tried to get out of the apartment. And the rest of the time, I played The Witcher (one of these days, I will finish it, despite my struggle with a few of its unique, er, gaming elements). So, not much writing then either.
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On the bright side, I did edit away at Flipside of Reason and gave it a new ending. I’ve now forwarded it to a couple of writing buddies for feedback. If I don’t hear from either by this evening, it’s off tomorrow.

I’ve also made it through a scene in Pack that was giving me some trouble, and I’ve jumpstarted Prehistoric again. I’m getting a much clearer idea of what the “ancestors” are gonna be like, and I’m making things tougher for myself, because I’m really taking away all reasons for the protagonist to actually want to work with them. There can be something called too much conflict. But in the wise words of a smarter, younger me, “oh, well.” The situation probably calls for an outline, but seeing how effective the outline’s proven for the progress of Pack, I think I’ll hold off on it for some time.

[From “Six Strides Counter-Spinwise”] A not very productive weekend

Writing-wise, I didn’t get much done this weekend.

I recently had a grammar revelation (which I could have gotten out of a grammar book, had I bothered reading one). So, I’ve been going through older stories, correcting technical aspects of the language. Over the weekend, I ran the treatment on the first sixth of what I have so far for “Varish” (~6K words worth of editing). I then tried to revive the scene I’m stuck on — spent a few hours to end up with a mere couple of hundred words. Needless to say, it wasn’t a good weekend for writing.
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On the other hand, I sketched a little. Did a quick scene from “Varish” and a possible character design for “Pack.”

[From “Crossing Roads”] Valentine’s Day, a year later.


And a little something else, scene from Varish Empire:

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[From “Crossing Roads”] Crossroads — the Silly Half-Assed Comic WannaBe Thingie: Ze beginning?

[note from July, 2015: this also exists in my Writing Diary, in a somewhat updated version — and, yes, it’s the precursor of Crossing Roads, changed quite a bit since then]






(missing strip — Kayn avoiding spells “Slip, duck, dodge.”)

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